Did you hear a shriek of glee around 3:45 Central time yesterday afternoon? If so, that was me. That is what time I finally finished my last soul-sucking proposal of doom and handed it over to my supervisor. Then I did a happy dance. But in all honesty, finishing the last one was kind of anticlimactic. These proposals had been draining my will to live for the last few weeks, so really, I kind of expected more fanfare. Like fireworks. Or a parade!!
Anyway – as anyone who talks to me daily is aware – these last few weeks have been Not Good. I have been That Woman That Cries At Work (once in front of the CEO, no less) at least four times, I fantasized multiple times about just leaving my desk and never coming back (and if we could afford it I totally would have), I came to work early every day, worked through lunch and stayed late. I went to work last Saturday. I snapped at coworkers who dared ask me about anything unrelated to the Proposals of Doom (but in my defense, old guy, I had told you the previous two days that I did not have time to look at your stupid thing with no firm deadline. Seriously, LEAVE ME ALONE).
At home I yelled at my husband, had no patience with my kids, and basically was just no fun to be around at all. Miss T caught a cold, so her sleep was for shit. N caught a stomach bug, so he couldn’t help me with her at night so then MY sleep was for shit. AND THEN, I caught a stomach bug. No, really! But I had to go to work because I was so overwhelmed I felt like I was never going to finish. And to top it all off, I couldn’t even have a glass of wine to unwind in the evenings because it made me feel like I was going to puke.
But! I DID finish, and I feel like a tremendously horrible burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Because it HAS, and it is GLORIOUS.
All that to say, obviously I haven’t been inclined to write lately (and you should probably be glad because it would have sounded something like I HATE LIFE AND I HATE YOU TOO) but now I am done and in a much better mood than I have been in quite a while. So I am back! Just as soon as I get a handle on our laundry situation, that is. YIKES.
Have a great weekend, everyone!